February 2012
7 posts
Maybe I’m old fashioned, but
I was raised under the belief that a girl should always be pursued first.
And when she is pursued, he is to fight for the time of day she gives him.
I was raised to give second chances.
But to do so with great caution.
I was raised to be aware of my surroundings, and trust my gut.
But also to avoid paranoia.
I was raised to calmly assess a situation,...
January 2012
6 posts
Here’s to the weekends we felt alive
And the Mondays we wish we’d taken it easier.
December 2011
19 posts
oh- him?
There’s him- he’s becoming my best friend
There’s him- he’s proving himself friend-worthy
..and him- he’s screwing with my mind, and he doesn’t even realize it.
..and-sort of- him, not even really worth mentioning… yet
oh, and I screwed everything up with him- the one who thought he loved me four months ago… exactly four months ago- almost to...
texts from last night (intended for post in August...
*August*
Have you ever gone through your phone and reread the heart to hearts you had last night?
yeah, I do that alot.
Only this heart to heart? it was my best guy friend pouring his heart out to me. He and I have been close friends since the third grade- we text a lot. This one was different- this one he confessed that he loved me.
Yeah- I know, in story books this is our happily ever...
I'm home
Cozy by the fire
Daily visits to my grandparents
Christmas items lace my house
Cuddle sessions with my puppy
Its been far too long.
Great Motivational Quote →
“Assume that every problem in your life is a lesson to make you stronger. Then...”
– Andrew Matthews, Happiness Now! (via simply-quotes)
November 2011
2 posts
One of those days (intended to be posted in...
That feeling where you literally cannot figure out whats going on, you know what I’m talking about? Physically and emotionally.
Physically- I think I’m getting sick, maybe its just the change of season or something, but i’m definitely not feeling well - sniffling, coughing, nyquil and dayquil like its nobody’s business. Emotionally- I’ve felt unsure before, but this...
I can have fun without alcohol- I went clubbing, had one shot and was fine- I had fun without the main goal of the night being alcohol. I went to dance and a friend bought a shot for me- whatever. Some people, I’ve noticed, must have it to even begin to enjoy themselves ~ they need liquid courage to dance, never mind how much they need to dance with a stranger - i danced, i had a blast, i...
August 2011
3 posts
And it hasn't even started yet
First day of classes is canceled - and the storm hasn’t even started yet
I’m behind on school work- and classes haven’t even started yet
I’m jealous of her and mad at him- and they aren’t even official yet
I’m judging people- and I haven’t even gotten to know them yet
I miss home- and I haven’t even been gone 48 hours.
I did it. I quit.
In high school it was for me and I was excited to continue in my future.
Got there?
…well we’ll just say it wasn’t for me.
I quit. it took alot.
alot of thinking, alot of crying, alot of “making sure”, and alot of phone calls
I did it.
It was hard.
but its done, and i’m relieved.
damn him
of course he’s an asshole.
aren’t they all?
..all the “perfect” ones i mean.
the ones who spend all this time with you and make you feel like your so god-damned special. Like- I’m talking the guy that picked me up two months ago and took me out JUST BECAUSE I WAS SAD.
what the shenanigans is that? you don’t just tell a girl you love her and that her...
July 2011
16 posts
I need
To learn from my past, and stop being so lazy and demotivated.
Currently- to sleep.
To move on and work to become the person I’ve always wanted to be.
Love Love Love
K
*heart sinks*
don’t hate the player, hate the game
don’t hate the player, hate the game
don’t hate the player HATE THE GAME.
nah, dude- the game is still fun, the players still suck, and i still feel shitty.
Hating the player, not the game ~ tonight anyway
Love Love Love
K
My glorious hair.
Let me give you a bit of background- my hair literally cannot make up its mind. I mean, one day it’ll be perfect, lay flat with a little wave, stay parted correctly all day and the next day? its a big poofy mess that can only be tamed and approved by me when it is in a messy bun atop my misshapen head *another story for another day*
Things I’ve learned from my ever changing hair:
1....
7/15
My flight back to my beloved Boston.
Winnie the Pooh movie arrives in theaters.
Deal well done, deal well done.
Lets make a deal
Maybe a month away was just too much. Maybe thats why I was breaking down so much.
Lets make a deal, short and sweet. Lets make it two weeks, cut it a little short. That way I can experience this, but still be home long enough to do what needs to be done.
Love Love Love
K
Not sure.
I’m not sure this is where I’m meant to be. I’ve been praying for guidance towards the right decision, but I’m still unsure. Do I stay and pretend I’m not miserable, or do I go home? I’m really trying to be happy here, I just can’t find things to do, nor do I have anyone to do them with. I took the trolley into downtown yesterday and had fun, but I was...
Lack of Motivation
I have so much to catch up on, and I honestly can find no reason to.
for one, my field hockey training? I think I’ve completed a whole half of one workout… these daily workouts started in May.. I’m no longer confident in my ability. I just keep ruminating about how the other girls are probably so on top of it and how I’ll never be as up to speed as them. I need to start...
Noises.
Everyone has noises that calm them down, be it running water, birds chirping, white noise, a favorite song.
For me? Its machinery. I know I’m crazy, but the sound of engines running, the beeping of a truck backing up. Its just who I am I guess, I’ve been around machinery my entire life ~ my family owns an excavating business.
Luckily, the neighborhood I’m staying in is under...
Fireflies
They exist here too!
A close connection to home, fireflies are. Talk about every summer night trying to catch those silly things. Keep a few in an old pickling jar and pretend you’ll use them as a nightlight. We all know that never actually works- those silly things stop using their lights after awhile.
I think I read somewhere once that Fireflies light up as a defense mechanism. So maybe...
Makes me wish
Met a lady today with a strong southern accent, and it literally made my day. I love listening to different accents, even stronger versions of my own boston accent. Makes me wish my accent was a bit stronger.
The people next door are having a blast~cookout tiki torches, fireworks, glow sticks, adult bean bag toss (blanking on the official name). Makes me wish my social life didn’t cease...
Happy Fourth!
It has occurred to me that this is the first Fourth of July in my entire life that I have no plans.
I’ve been shown where fireworks might be tonight, but honestly I’d rather not go alone.
July 4th is my mother’s birthday, so we’ve always visited them this weekend, sneaking in a few fireworks at Hampton Beach or even just from the back yard.
Alas, I’m alone with...
I guess..
I guess I belong, a little.
I’m supposed to be here, I’m almost sure of that.
I guess I’ll stay awhile and figure it all out.
Obstacle, I am no longer.
Here, in the heat humidity and flies…
LoveLoveLove
K
Maybe its just the tiredness talking..
Maybe its just the tiredness talking, but this truly is not exactly as I hoped it would be.
There is no wireless internet, so skype-ing my family from my room isn’t going to happen as I had hoped
I didn’t get the room I thought was plainly mine, granted its probably a thousand degrees up there, still the mini front bedroom wasn’t exactly what I was expecting.
I feel more like...