*August*

Have you ever gone through your phone and reread the heart to hearts you had last night?

yeah, I do that alot. 

Only this heart to heart? it was my best guy friend pouring his heart out to me. He and I have been close friends since the third grade- we text a lot. This one was different- this one he confessed that he loved me. 

Yeah- I know, in story books this is our happily ever after… I don’t go to college, we get married young- and fight against all odds. This ain’t no fairy tale. I had to tell him I didn’t feel the same way. It was harsh- but whatever, he needed to get over it. I don’t love him- I’m not as serious about him as he is about me, I didn’t want to lead him on

*December*

I told him that night I didn’t feel the same way.

I moved into college the next morning.

I’ve seen him twice since.

We’re barely on talking terms anymore.

He has a girlfriend now.

i’m afraid he doesn’t love me anymore